Things Will Get Better

My skin, as usual, is very dry today. Thee is a lot of flakes. I looked at myself in the mirror and it looked like I was growing a white beard!  I just can't find anything that will moisturize my face. My face used to get really dry before tsw, but never this dry! I hope it's not too noticeable because I don't want my friends to see. My friends are all great and I know they will all support me, but that still doesn't stop me from feeling embarrassed.

I feel like my skin is getting a little better each day. It was a whole lot less painful to get out of bed this morning. I know I should be happy that I'm physically improving, but emotionally, I'm getting worse each day. People are starting to notice how tired and unhappy I look. I'm never like this.  Whenever something happens, I'm usually able to smile through it, but now it's so hard and I feel like I'm giving off a terrible vibe to people.  

Sometimes I just feel like taking a break from this all. Like, just for one day, I won't have to worry about my skin at all.  I'd be able to concentrate in class. Get more rest. Hang out with my friends and eat all the junk they eat and wear what they wear. 

But I'm definitely not giving up, I've worked so hard to get up to this point and It would all just be a waste if I were to quit. I probably wouldn't even be able to forgive myself.  Once this is done, it'll all be worth it because I can finally become a normal teenager.  Yes, I only have about three years until I'll be 20 and no longer a teen, but that's just enough time for me to catch up on everything I was never able to do or enjoy because of my skin.